30/30 Day 29-Circus Tears

Tears tear down cheek

Thin line cuts trail

Across my once

Smiling face

How quick

Everything ends

And happiness

Splits and falls away

Peeling back

Tendrils of joy

To reveal depression

And its carnival smile

We all learn to be clowns

To fake laughter and perform

For an audience

Learn to juggle other’s emotions

And let yours drop to the floor

Tightrope, between mania and depression

And I find myself

Swaying slowing 

Between the lion’s mouth

And trampling elephants

Each tear, another rope

Keeping my circus tent of emotions

Secure, and the buoyancy

Of my fake smile floating