Renew

Maybe it is because
I am turning forty years old this year
but I feel like shedding
off four decades of guilt and shame
built up expectations, unfinished projects
Incomplete, every one of these layers
and none of them
define me, but only linger
it is exhausting
to reiterate other’s expectations
upon one self’s skin
so for a gift to myself
going to let go
of all the regret, all the doubt
releasing all my ghosts
watch them dance upon my skin
and disappear, wisps carried by the wind
unravelling me, thin cords
other’s expectations and it is time
to let go of everyone else’s ideas for me
breath fresh life into this body
I want to no longer be a ghost of myself
going to learn to walk again
learn to dance
learn to be myself
enjoy the wrinkles, every curve
it is exhausting
to reiterate other’s expectations
upon one self’s skin

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